![]() The Brittany that achieves greatness is the Brittany that I was meant to be. I have the opportunity to utilize the talents of a group of people that are committed to my success (the Miss Idaho board). I also have the ability to share my message with others. It gives me a platform to overcome my fears, to put myself in uncomfortable situations, to connect with people I never may have otherwise and learn from them. I have to compete and I have to compete to my best ability because this program, Miss Idaho, it makes me better. I simply gotta march my heart is a drummer”. “Get ready for me love ‘cause I’m a comer. Not someone that other people want Brittany Lock to be. Even if I fail, I will fail knowing that I put my whole heart into this and that I was raw. I guess I didn’t make it”.Īgain, here I am. I’ll beat my drum- and if I’m fanned out- your turn at bat sir. In all of my flaws, in all of my glory, in all of my hard work, I am here to do my best. Then, eventually, there will be one time that it works and BAM. But I am going to try and try and try and put 110% effort into it. You know what everyone says about Thomas Edison and how you have to find 999 ways to not invent a light bulb before you find the one way that works? That is what this phrase means to me. I just have to apply it and know that whatever happens, I have done everything in my power to make the world a little better. I have done all of the work to be successful. I have all of the tools to be successful. I am the best Brittany Lock in the history of the world”. It’s when I sing these lyrics that I will boldly declare to everyone listening “I am enough. But there is another part of me, the part I have from time to time listened to, that tells me that I am not enough to achieve what I want to. Part of me knows that I am capable of great things and that my heart is in the right place. It’s like the devil and angel on the shoulder picture. But, I have realized that I am singing that part to myself. I think that I had always told myself that I was singing this particular section of the song for the judges and the audience- maybe even the “haters”. Don’t bring around a cloud to rain on my parade”. Life’s candy and the sun’s a ball of butter. “Don’t tell me not to live, just sit and putter. Well, I am here to make a document so that I never forget and so that everyone knows what it means to me. ![]() Of course I had thought about this before, but being consumed in the technicalities, trying to be perfect, and trying to be the best, I forgot why I loved this song. I was getting so frustrated thinking “why can’t I just relax?” and “why can’t I get this right?” Finally she said, “Brittany, let’s talk about what this song means to you”. My tense body was contributing to a strain on my voice and the missing of a couple notes. Carole, my voice coach, reminded me kindly as I was warming up and as I was practicing my talent song, “relax your arms”, “relax”, “relax”. I had just gotten off work at my internship and went straight to my voice lesson. That was until Friday, April 29, at 2:15 pm. In the midst of all of this hustle and bustle, I forgot why I am here in the first place. All of these opportunities I am so grateful for but, I’ll tell you, I go to bed tired. The Miss Idaho competition is less than two months away, all of the paperwork and ad sales are due in about 2 weeks, college final papers are due this week, and I have also getting adjusted in a new internship. ![]() I’m going to be honest with you, ladies and gentlemen. In order to prepare, I have been practicing my Broadway vocal, “Don’t Rain on my Parade”, on my own time as well as receiving coaching from a vocal instructor. This portion of competition is unique to the Miss America Organization and cannot be over looked as it carries the most weight percentage wise. One area of competition that is wildly important in the Miss Idaho pageant is the talent. but I don’t even think I realized that until just now. I know what you might be thinking- interview, right? Wrong. ![]() A few days ago I realized that there is a part of the competition that allows me to voice these things and my development because of them. Another is that I have, in the past, been terrified of failure. One is that I speak endlessly about the personal platform that I have been developing. If you enjoy keeping up with my blog posts like I enjoy writing them, you may be starting to see some trends. Miss Idaho is an organization that has many things that set it apart from other pageants.
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